I need to find the desperation that Mary has due to the war. Mary has a lot of innocence and religious beliefs due to her desperation. The desperation and over emotion is something i struggle to connect with as i have had a more privalaged life than Marys. However in many ways Mary has been desensitised by the war and doesn't feel lots of emotion as going through such hard times and experiencing the things these women have such as rape or torture, living with the constant fear of being taken by soldiers. The women in this story have experienced so much vulnerability that they have learnt how to block themselves from it and not get effected by whats happening around them. However I need to find the struggle from small parts of my life so i can commit to the life of a person effected by war. Also i feel that although Mary has a lack of control due to war and she lives in a very patriarcle society where she is most probably abused by men often due to her desensitised nature to the topic. I feel Mary has a lot of control as she is influencing madame and the way the story goes, they controll what is happening on stage a lot and i am a very controlling person which i feel can both benefit and hinder my performance as in an ensemble you have to work as a collective unit and not as an individual meaning i cant take control i can only be an opinionated member of the unit.
Write up about the style?
The style of the performance is very fluid and ensemble led. The piece is very physical and shows emotions by visual representation and levels. The ensemble works to add dimension and story telling. There are lots of linking actions to create fluid movement such as when the soldiers carry the bodies from one place to the next to create space and signify the start of the maid scene or when we go to collect the shoes and as an ensemble create the infinity sign by crossing through each other into the spinal and out to linking arms to show the rush and hurry to get shoes whilst also adding movement and excitement creating energy before the next scene begins whilst also setting up the shoes for the next scene.
What character would i most easily be cast as? Servant- theresa. Theresa is quite similar to me as she has a bitchy nature but has a much deeper backstory and intensity which i know i can bring to the character. She doesnt have overly graphic storytelling or actions which wont force me to be uncomfortable and negatively effect the acting however it wont push me out of my comfort zone as doig something graphic or not natural to me would allow me to explore a different side of theatre. However the choral/ ensemble work will push me out of my comfort zone and teach me new skills about ensemble and physical theatre.
What character would be a challenge for me? Madame- due to her her over sexual atmosphere and confidence would be challenging because its unlike me and push me to be out of my comfort zone. Also the dark topic of rape can be difficult for me to portray as it is so unrealtable for me as i've never experienced anything as dark as that.
